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Slowly Lost You Too -Oneshot-

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(Song Fic- italics are lyrics of Suicide Season by Bring Me The Horizon)


We stare at broken clocks, the hands don't turn anymore.


One last look to the world, through the glass.  One last word to the ones who love him, spoken through the pen in his hand.  One last chance to turn back.


The days turn into nights, empty hearts and empty places.


But in reality, any chance he had has fled long ago.  He had thought he would be nervous, a shaken mess.  But everything is numb, now.  Blissfully  cold, after all that has happened.


The day you lost him, I slowly lost you too.


One last apology,  the paper is folded.  Placed upon the edge of the bed, carefully.


For when he died, he took a part of you.


Bill was his everything, his entire life.  When Bill left, Tom's world has no other option than too crumble.  
It only makes sense, then.


No time for farewells, no chances for goodbyes.


The world is a sick place.  Those people, do they care they took both Bill and Tom's lives away?


No explanations, No fucking reasons why.


Of course not.


I watched it eat you up, pieces fallen on the floor.


The words will never leave his mind, never stop echoing.  


We stare at broken clocks, the hands don't turn anymore.


He had known.  He had known before they had come to tell him, his baby brother had been murdered.  That day he had woken up, he had the feeling of dread coursing through him.  Before Bill had even walked out the door, before Tom saw once last glimpse of his precious other half.  He just knew.


If only sorrow could build a staircase, or tears could show the way.


Why didn't he stop Bill?  He could have kept him home, by his side, safe.  But he didn't do a thing.


I would climb my way to heaven, and bring him back home again.


And now these are the prices they will both pay.


Don't give up hope my friend, this is not the end.


He had promised to be Bill's protection.  His amour, his shield from the rest of the world.
He had trusted Tom.  And Tom had trusted himself.


Death is only a chapter, so lets rip out the pages of yesterday.


But he had never believed any real danger would ever threaten his twin, in reality.  He had let his guard down far too long.  Not until too late had he realized what a mistake that had been.


Death is only a horizon. And I am ready for my sun to set.


Too late to take mistakes back.  Too late to salvage what is left of his heart.  Too late to tell Bill, once more, how much he means to him.


We would do anything to bring him back to you.


But there's nothing to be done to fix that.


We would do anything to end what you're going through.


Trembling, he swallows the pills in his palm.  The prescription they put him on, to end this depression, his sorrow.  To 'cure' him.
But losses can not be cured.  Doctors never will understand.  This is not the chemicals, in his mind.  This is not clinical.  This is a broken shard lodged into his soul, with no way to remove it.


If only sorrow could build a staircase, or tears could show the way.


He crawls over to the head of the bed, where Bill's head used to rest.  Lies down, taking his last shaking breaths.  He is no longer calm, no longer completely numb.


I would climb my way to heaven, and bring him back home again.


For the thousandth time, he envisions the last moments of his baby brother's life.
Wonders if Bill screamed for him, wonders how hard he faught to escape.


I would do anything to bring him back to you.


His eyes shudder closed, his last breaths becoming more and more slow.  Images of Bill fly past his closed eyes, reliving every moment and memory there is of him.
His breaths become slower, and slower, until everything goes black, to end in few hours.




Because if you got him back, I would get back the friend that I once knew.
(If you have an account on THF and rather read it there, [link] feel free)

(If your not familiar, the fanfic is of the Kaulitz twins of Tokio Hotel.)

The wrote this after I heard Suicide Season by Bring Me The Horizon. That song is incredibly sad D: [link]

Also- I skipped a few repeated lines/verses.


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jenta07's avatar
So amazing! You write with such great feeling